by Daphne Gray-Grant
I have a new companion. Or, at least, a new recognition of a longtime acquaintance. Its name is doubt.
Perhaps you know doubt, too.
That work you're doing? It's no good
, s/he says. Waste of time. Don't you have anything better to do?
Have you ever considered how much influence doubt may have on your writing? It could be one of your secret enemies—although, in truth, it's relatively easy to turn it into a friend.
Oh, and, by the way,
doubt continues; If you do have the nerve to write, don't let a sentence sit on the page for more than 30 seconds before you get to work fixing it. (What could be worse than spelling a name wrong or spewing a cliché?) As for that advice about writing a rough first draft? Well, that's ridiculous!
And don't continue to write until your research is 100% complete and unless you have a plan demonstrating exactly where each sentence is going to go.
I started thinking about doubt recently, because I'm writing a new book. While I'm generally a confident writer and have no difficulty producing a blog five days a week, and writing countless articles, press releases and reports, somehow the challenge of doing a book has made doubt my new best friend—shamelessly walking in the front door and perching itself in the chair beside my desk.
My friend, Eve, a writer and yoga teacher who's also working on a book, blogged about doubt recently in a way that made me pay attention. Here is a quote from B.K.S. Iyengar she cited: "If doubt arises in your discipline, let it come. You do your work, and let doubt go about its work. Let's see which one gives up first."
(You can read Eve's whole post here
The quote made me realize that doubt had infiltrated my writing life in the same way water will seep into any crack. Suddenly, it was as if the weather had turned cold and the water was turning into ice, causing the seams to burst.
For the next week, I decided to regard doubt as a companion and observe what s/he was up to. Funnily enough, the mere act of observing doubt—regarding it as a separate person—was profoundly powerful.
I now feel about doubt the same way I feel about fear. It's an emotion. It's neither good nor bad. It has its own reasons for being there. Deal with it in the same way you deal with fear:
- Don't think you can beat doubt by ignoring it. Instead, surprise it by paying attention to it. That will take it off its guard and allow you to continue to write.
- Don't stop breathing. Many of us suffer from writing apnea and hold our breath when we feel any negative emotion, particularly doubt. This only magnifies any physical symptoms we're already feeling. Remember to take deep, belly breaths to keep yourself calm.
- Know that doubt will pass. Nothing is forever. Not even doubt. Awful as the feeling may seem, know that it will eventually go away.
- Do your work, regardless. It will take willpower to keep on writing, regardless of doubt, but don't give doubt the privilege of being your excuse. Time runs out for all of us. If you're not writing now, when will you ever?
- Record your achievements and celebrate them. I keep a chart showing how many words I write each day and how many I have left to write. After writing for just over a month, I have more than 15,000 words. I expect to have a completed rough draft of my new book in 28 weeks.
I did some research on doubt and was intrigued to discover that the two areas on the Internet where doubt is much discussed center on religion and business.
In religion, doubt arises because of the need for faith. But here's the weird thing: writing requires faith, too. Don't be so scared of doubt that you allow it to control your life. Instead, treat it as you would a very casual acquaintance—with civility, politeness and a discernable lack of interest.
After all, doubt has its job to do: doubting. Just as you have yours.
How do you deal with your doubt about writing? We can all learn from each other so please share your thoughts with my readers and me in my blog (just scroll to the end for the "comments" section.)
Daphne Gray-Grant is a former daily newspaper editor, a writing and editing coach and the author of the popular book 8 1/2 Steps to Writing Faster, Better. Via her website, she offers the newsletter Power Writing. It's weekly, brief and free. Sign up at the Publication Coach website: www.publicationcoach.com.